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I Am a Full Time Working Mom

Wednesday, October 11, 2017



Being a full-time working mom has its challenges.
There are days that I rather stay home with my little guy, and days where I look forward to diving into a load of emails. I always knew I'd be a full-time working mom. Not exactly by choice, but financially my husband and I maintain on two incomes. Therefore, I mentally prepared myself for the day I had to head back into my office after maternity leave.

Being a full-time working mom means long days and even longer nights. It means never quite getting enough of sleep, and fighting through the exhaustion to focus on my responsibilities at work. It means scrolling through the pictures on my phone because I wonder what my little guy is up to, and missing him throughout the day.

It means taking a day off of work to get him to his appointments or because my sitter is busy one day. Sometimes I worry that my coworkers may grow tired of my constant requests for a flexible schedule, while they pull the all-nighters.


Sorry, I can't do a team lunch today. I need it to go through bank statements, pay bills, make doctor's appointments, and create a weekly calendar to sync to my husband's schedule. Either I do it now or it may not get done until much later. It means a lot of rescheduling, canceling, and moving dates around just to fit everything in. Often times at my own neglect.

There are days that I wonder if I'll miss when he learns to crawl or take his first steps. I can't be with him during his most active times of the day, and I miss out on his amazing laughter. It means getting to work early, and leaving earlier than everyone else so I can pick him up.

I spend the bulk of my evenings trying to play catch up with my son, but he's beginning to wind down for the day. Therefore, the amount of time I have to play with him is limited before I prep him for bed. I love giving him his bath, reading a book, and watching him fall asleep. I get to hold him in my arms for the first time all day. But now that he's asleep, I have to prep for the next day so that it'll be a load off for the morning.

It means eating like crap because I'm just too tired to fix an appropriate dinner most nights. And the nights that I do make dinner, I can't guarantee that it's my best. Being a working mom means multi-tasking, learning to utilize my down time effectively, and even relying on my son's favorite TV shows to entertain him so that I can wash the dishes.

It means not wanting to do anything on the weekends, because it's the only time I get to spend with him all day. I don't want to run errands. I don't want to meet up for lunch. I have to value this time with him because on Sunday evening, I have to prepare to do it all over again.

Don't get me wrong. I love being a working mom. I love having responsibilities outside of my home, and challenging myself each day to tasks outside of changing diapers. But sometimes I miss my kid. Sometimes I'm tired of juggling those two worlds.

But I do what I do to take care of home. I do what I do to make sure he gets everything he needs and then some. I love it when I am picking him up and the way he stops what he's doing to greet me with the biggest smile ever! Almost to say he's missed me too.

The sacrifices. The exhaustion. The juggling. It's all for him and it's so worth it.



10 comments on "I Am a Full Time Working Mom"
  1. I’ve been there! It’s not easy but you do what you have to for your little one. With my first, i went back when she was two months old and it was tough. I felt like I missed out on so much but when I got home, it was the best feeling! You’re doing a great job and your little guy will definitely see that! :)

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    1. Thanks! It really does get hard, but it's great to have a reminder.

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  2. I can imagine how difficult it is must be for working mums. I do freelance work at home and only have one child, but sometimes it can even get a bit difficult.... What more for full time working mums?

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    1. Absolutely! It's hard for us mamas. Just have to keep pushing

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  3. I am a working mama too! Some days I cannot wait to get to work and some days I wish I could stay home with my girl. But, I realized that being a working mom makes me a better mom at home. I cherish the time I have with her more!

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    1. That's a great way to see it! Being a working mom definitely pushes me more to be the best for my son when I have the time for him.

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  4. I've been there too. I miss having a career sometimes. But, overall I love the life I have now too it is bittersweet in a way.

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    1. I've been back and forth as well. Still learning the juggle.

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  5. I think parenting is all about juggling in different season. The baby season, the tween season and teen season. It's not easy at all but your rocking it Mom :)

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